I think about where I feel most at home being and living a transsexaul most every day.Which was in Houston Texas.I lived mostly everyday as a woman and there is why I was the happiest there I could be myself.The one problem I did run into was money to live on.I looked to much like a boy to get a job as a woman and I didnt wanna dress as a man because I enjoyed being dressed up as a woman It made me feel whole I never had the urge to drink because I was happy with how I was living but the down fall was I had to leave because I was not able to live there without money.

        At the time I did not understand what the other wemon meant about needing the working as a man to live as a woman now I know if I would have went to work and made some money it would have been better ,but I enjoyed dressing up so much thats all I wanted to do I had a one track mind and that was dressing as a woman.

       The feeling the need to dress as a woman all the time was so great,it was the only way I could be happy , dressing as a boy if only for work made me feel like I was taking away the person I really felt I was.

       It took me a long time to put it in my mind that just because I have to dress like a boy in no way means I have to act or think like a boy.I use to be depressed all the time because i was a part time woman because I was only able to dress as a woman at nite since leaving Houston,but now I realize that how I dress does not make me who I am the way I feel inside makes me who I am ,so now when I have to dress as a man to work I do it but in my mind I am a woman and I am having womans thought