Many years feeling trapped only to realize I failed myself. I failed to recognize the path I was taking by the hope that it was right. What occured to me many years after beginning to feel this way is that my instinct was right. You’ll always regret not believeing what your gut tells you.

It led to piling on the stress and not communicating in my relationship with my partner. What I should have done was “feel it, say it”. It would have been dealt with right away and decisions could have been made based on the truth, not just on hope. I’m truly sorry for the pain that I caused by realizing it today. It all came out at once. Now my partner, has been blind sided. I cannot ask for forgivness of not communicating.

I dont ever want to be this person again. I promise myself  to allow my feelings to show and let my heart speak.

I hope that this finds you if you are in need. It is the biggest burden to bear when you’re not true to yourself.