“why is it that we don’t talk anymore?”

 The question come out of nowhere, I was completely taken by surprise. I hadn’t spoken to her in months yet alone seen her, yet here she was, her sleek green eyes staring at me and i became mesmerized by them, lost in nostalgia. “Why is it that we don’t talk?” she repeated, her brow began to furrow as her eyes narrowed the tiniest bit. It was a subtle change, at a glance you wouldn’t be able to spot the difference, but if you looked  in them you could feel the frustration that burned with such passion it could melt lead.

I was at a loss for words, she had caught me by surprise and seeing her brought forth so many repressed feelings….feeling i thought i had lost….I try to keep a straight face, I don’t want her to see any sign of discomfort, I don’t her to have the satisfaction. Who am I kidding, she’s known me too well for too long, I’m sure she got a read on me the moment she approached me. What is it she’s doing here though? Why is it that today of all days she decides to approach me? “I’ve….I’ve been busy” I clumsily replied. How stupid of me was that! of all the things to excuses to say that was the best i could come up with! that was pathetic! I might as well have told her it’s because I’m tired of being her best friend. That i can’t take it anymore when she calls me at three in the morning because she and her boyfriend had a fight. That i love her, and can’t stand simply being the best friend anymore and that if i can’t be with her than i can’t be near her!

Her face softened as those words left my mouth and her eyes glazed. I could see tears beginning to form. She stood there staring at me and i swore i could hear her heart being split in two. It’s funny, I would always go on about how much heat ache she brings me and yet i was the one to break hers. Without a word she left, she just turned around and walked away, and it was at that moment i understood why it was she approached me, why she chose this day to so. It was because she too realized she couldn’t bear merely being friends any longer. She had intended on stopping me from leaving, or maybe to go with me, either way she had wanted to be together but because of i was so wrapped up in my own feelings, in my own heartache i couldn’t even notice hers.