For some reasons, I do not know why all of a sudden I was not comfortable with you anymore. All of a sudden I felt that we are not really open to each other. All of a sudden I felt I am a complete stranger to you.
Maybe I am a complete stranger. We do not really know each other very well. It just started with your 12 hugs everyday, and now you are not supplying me with it anymore.
I am trying to dissect everything here. Maybe you do not like my type. I am the complete introvert around people and becomes an extrovert when I get to know people better. I am not a sociable person, that I have been telling you. I do not like the crowd. I do not like it when I am in the crowd, at the same time I am with you and the crowd knows you, I become a complete pariah. I do not talk much to the people unknown to me. That I do not know if I am going to change. Know that I will not change for more or for less of me. This is me. Understand that this is me. This is an all or nothing option. I will never settle for changing myself. Understand this is who I am. Even I am confused of who really I am. But this defines me.
All of a sudden I am wanting you. I have been missing you. Do you know who you are? Or are we just souls who do not know whose body we are possessing? Now I do not know if it was really you or was it also a part of my figment imagination. Nevertheless, I let myself out. Now I am inside this shell. I am inside this shell I have been trying to forge thicker. I am inside this shell that has been my home my whole life.
I became afraid with your stare. You were annoyed last time, I saw it in your eyes. I am really sorry for the childish me last night. I was… I let myself out again and that was annoying. I was really scared I might lose you forever.
The taps on my head, the taps on my shoulder, now I am quite certain those are but taps for a sister. I am quite certain those taps assure my safety, but nonetheless for a sister. For all the jokes I let out, I hope you understand they were all jokes, and I hope you do not believe any of them. For now, I am confused and with you I am confused.