No doubt, you are convinced that you are prevented from living the life you would like to live because of the many considerations involved. And, furthermore because your situation is so unique and complicated with numerous extenuating factors, it would be impossible, [not to mention, totally selfish] for you to pursue your dreams. There is absolutely no way you would be so thoughtless, disrespectful, insensitive, unaccommodating, and self-centered to put your wants and needs before another. How grand! While you are in the midst of all of your consuming considerations, coupled with the self-effaced picture of how benevolent you are, “to deny yourself these silent aspirations”, you conjure up even more elaborately inscribed considerations as a means of sabotage. Not only are you quite adept in the ‘art of consideration’ but undermining your most passionate desires, without the slightest bit of recognizable manipulation, is simply an sophisticatedly adroit affair. Acting as a master self-deceiving manipulator, your actions are impeccably maneuvered in such a way that no one would ever suspect how much you resent, (inwardly seethe) not being able to fulfill your own heart’s desire. You have so crafted your outward gestures of aiding the other, to such a degree, that people actually praise you for being so “understanding”, “patient” “kind” “loving” and of course, “considerate”.

The idea that you have so many THINGS to consider invariably speaks to the fact that you are hiding beneath a façade of inappropriate delusion. For some reason, {known only to you}, you have chosen to live your life vicariously through another, having convinced yourself that not only is it noble but praiseworthy, as well. You have further convinced yourself that your apparent self-denial is a sign of LOVE in the highest measure of degree. False. Not true. You can not possibly LOVE when you harbor unfinished business within. Nor can you love another when you want something from him/her. {Wanting the other person to be happy, successful, fulfilled… is wanting something} CONSIDERATION is just another convenient word for “not showing up for your own life.” What are you afraid of? What are you embarrassed about? What is it that so terrifies you to think of attempting and failing? Who are you supposedly concerned over upsetting? Why are you really sublimating your desires? {It’s really not only futile to do this, but stupid.} You can not hide from yourself. Whatever YOU are, shines through like a locomotive’s headlight. Have you ever stopped to think how much energy you are wasting in all of your fruitless considering? The amount of time you spend, mulling the THINGS over in your mind while trying to cover up the subliminal hints being dropped along the way is preposterous.