Desires and obligations the two components of my life, rather only components of my life. My life has been strange, I desire to simplify it, but obliged to make it stranger. Yesterday while walking through the streets, on my normal routine you know, I saw a bird, rather a free bird. Birds fly free, I desire to be a bird, but obliged to be human. Obligations and desires are like the mind and heart of my body. Each cant live without another and i cant live with either. May I ask you something, “Heart or mind, which of them can I pull out, its getting a bit congested inside”. Please do not faint. Well I don’t know why I want that, to die or to survive. But who cares ultimately I have to die.

I desire not to have obligations and obliged to suppress my desires. We do so little that we desire and so more we are obliged to. It’s very confusing, I just can’t decide. I just can’t decide why I eat. I know its strange. But tell me one thing do I desire to eat or obliged to eat. Do I desire to sleep or obliged to sleep. Do I desire to live or obliged to live. I just can’t understand. It’s a strange war. Me against me. And guess what, who is at loss its, ME.