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I sit here thinking and I wonder how could I have ever been so young and stupid as to have been a victim of domestic abuse?  I know it sounds harsh, but that’s exactly how I feel when I look back on those days.  I feel like I was the stupidiest person alive at that time. 

How could I have just let someone just hit and hit and hit on me and not fight back?  At that time, I felt like I didn’t want to hurt him.  How could I hurt someone that I supposedly love?  Because I was young and STUPID.  He hurt me, so naturally he couldnt have loved me.  How could you really love someone and turn around and hurt them so bad?  Ask yourself these questions, ladies when these men beat you and then come back crying and whining and telling you how sorry they are and how they really didn’t mean to do it.  Sometimes they say, you are the only family I have.  Please don’t leave me. I love you.  It won’t happen again.  I promise.  I heard that one about thirty times.

They can also make you feel like it was all your fault in the first place.  If you would’ve just shut up, I wouldnt have had to do it.  You are too biggedy.

Once you’ve been in a situation like this and once you’ve learned your lesson, you never want to go through it again.  You get less stupid with age and you look back and you just wonder how you could have ever even lived through it all.  Without God’s grace and mercy, I know I wouldn’t even be here to tell it and right now I’m just laying it all out there.  I’ve been through it.  It was many, many years ago, and I will never, ever go through it again, not any kind of abuse, physical or verbal.  I do not have to live like that and I won’t.

Do not ever let anyone abuse you. Get out of that situation as soon as you can until that person can get some counseling.  If you listen to the sob stories, you will be hearing them over and over and over again after each incident.  Your life could very well depend on that person getting the help they need.