I am way too aware of how I’m not a naturally positive person. That’s a light way of saying I’m negative. Maybe I’m just so exhausted from having to overcompensate myself in every way..exhaustion from being mommy/daddy..exhaustion from having to keep things together in my fucked-up family..exhaustion from planning and balancing (with no car)..exhaustion from feeling like people get tired of me asking for help (when in reality I avoid it at all costs exhaustion from being let down..exhaustion emotionally..sleep exhaustion. Typing this out is exhausting! Anyways..my negativity is getting the best of me (therefore making it even more impossible to sleep.) I wish I could just relax. RELAXING is exhaustion..one more thing that just doesn’t come naturally. Conclusion: I am one negative, exhausted, un-relaxed individual. There. Rant mission completed. *phew* I feel a little better.