FEELING STRESSED

These past couple of days I have had this pain on my back it is on my shouler blades and neck sometimes it shoots down to my butt.  The reason for this I know it is caused by stress.  The reason I am stressed is because my husband has just been to the doctors and found out he has bi-polar and can not focus on his job and had to quit.  I recently lost my job.  My husband thinks it’s a good idea to sell the house and start fresh in a new province, but we can’t move because we are broke. 

My husband had a chat with my father and my father thinks it’s a good idea to sell the house first but then that means that we might be homeless for a couple of months.  My husband also thinks that I would be better without him because he thinks he will drag me down with him, but how am I suppose to leave him with his condition, and when we got married it was for better or worse, for richer for poorer.  But I think maybe it would be better to move back with my parents, but I don’t know if I should or just stick with him. 

We are so compatiable, we both think the same way, our first date felt like our tenth date, I was saying what he was thinking, we were even talking about children’s name, we jut knew we were meant to be.  But then I have this guy friend that my husband does not know about but he is married and has a child, but it is strickly friends with NO BENIFITS, but we find each other very attractive and care for each other like never before, we always keep thinking about each other, We do get together for coffee and I was actually a little sad because I wasn’t going to see him any more if I moved but with all this going on I’m not sure. 

My husband thinks that the trip is postponed but I have no idea what is going to happen.  I have a feeling that I am going to get worse with my pain, then my husband and I are going to separate for a while and then I will be more friendly to my friend and then my husband and I are going to get back together and move to Nova Scotia.