I was sitting there  in the parking lot, looking but not seeing.There’s a storm in my heart. My baby Shaggy is inside the vet’s clinic and he is not doing good.He was given a 50-50 chance, but i don’t want to admit it.

Then the vet came near me and shook his head. No words coming out from my mouth, but i hear a deafenng  noise in my soul. My heart is screaming. But I just sat there staring blankly.

Then it’s starting to sink in. Slowly, reality shaking my consciousness. And I cried, bitterly that I felt l am loosing my  breath and will pass out anytime. But I have to drive home and tell my kids the bad news. My tears were falling. Poor visibility for a lady driver. But who cares! I want to die anyway.

Missing Shaggy was a torment that I wished would end . Everywhere I look, I see him. I hear his footsteps. I can feel his breath in my ears. And it is killing me.

In the midst of my agony, I promised myself I won’t love a dog again.Never!

Two days have passed by , my eyes are still swollen, I don’t want to eat,all I do is stay in my bed and wallow on my misery.

Then it hit me…I had that strong desire to look into his eyes. I have this strong desire to look into the eyes of another dog.I felt it would somehow comfort me.

So, I decided to buy a puppy!

I got up, got dressed and went to the city , on to that strip where all the best pet shops are. A black terrier puppy caught my attention. Why? The puppy was walking all over the other puppies, stepping in their backs or heads.That was cute. A black puppy with white paws that looks like her socks and a white patch in the breast that looks like her bib. 

Shaggay was tagged Sold.

And I brought her home and hoped to surprise my depressed kids. And I can never forget how their faces brightened when they saw the puppy in my arms.

Shaggay healed our broken hearts and soothe our broken soul. She died too a few years after, but I know what to do already after her death. And I let go of her not crying so hard as when i did with Shaggy.That’s the way she would have wanted for that’s how much she loves me.

So when a dog breaks your heart. buy another one.
When someone human breaks your heart, find another one. (^_^)

It works, try it.

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Pappy and Shaggy (both now in heaven)