Due to the high traffic of the internet and because there are people who like to meddle in other peoples lives. I am being forced to make a decision about my marriage sooner than I would prefer to make it.

Journaling and Blogging online is a great outlet for people like me who write for a living. It gives us the opportunity to vent and get feelings out that maybe we shouldn’t add to our novels or other writing. Unfortunately it does cause us great distress if the intention is turned into gossip and innuendo.

Recently I started posting on myspace about a situation with my husband. Granted he knew that I like to vent and I told him I was venting but apparently he didn’t realize it was so public. One of his friends sent him links and copies of all of my blogs and I definitely got an email full. He didn’t think it was right that I post it in front of the whole world and people who might now him, like his family. He wasn’t worried about my family or friends, he was worried what people might think of him. Wow, what a reality check for me or maybe him.

Maybe I should explain that my husband is in the military and he is away right now for another couple of months. The only communication we have are occasional phone calls and emails. Also I should probably explain that my husband had some communications with some friends of mine that some would view as inappropriate. Considering the situation and the venue of this article I am not going to get into a lengthy explanation. That being said, let’s move on.

After our reality check we went around and around about the situation and the fact that I am blogging and he decides that he wants to back track and tell me that I need to get over what he did and that he didn’t do that much wrong. I understand that not knowing the situation you may feel a little left out here, but I will just tell you that in my opinion he cheated. So we sit at odds during this whole merry-go-round ride.

Since my husband is away I felt that making a decision about our marriage and what happens to it, isn’t a good idea. For one thing, being face to face is always better, even though it maybe harder, plus who needs a dear John letter when you are away from home, that is just wrong. Plus, how do I make this decision based on emails and not a live contact where I can see if he is just feeing me a line to get out of trouble. So I was going to sit on the decision until we could handle it properly and maturely.