Dedication

To The Man who showed me a life worth living 

and made this book possible; the same man I will

one day proudly call my Husband.

I love you Tim!

Forever

Prologue

July, 25,2009

I had to be dreaming, No human on earth could possibly have eyes like that; Remarkable in their beauty but still alien to me, the only thing of my knowledge to describe the colors of his eyes would be the stone called Amethyst. Slightly covered by soft sand colored hair, they seemed to peer right in to my  soul. Those eyes, his eyes read me as if I was an open book,  but a book made only for his eyes.  No words were spoken, but I could sense the changing of emotions rolling off him in waves crashing around us both. My want to shadow my problems, my feelings, and my fears were strong enough to make me look away and turn my back on him and run so he could not share my pain.  My need held me there. The pressure that has been building inside me from it all planted my feet where I stood and  kept my eyes locked on the Amethyst jewels in front of me.  He comes  to me in my dreams, i antisipate his next return.

Sixteen years since my parents death, and sixteen years since the visions started. If the foster homes weren’t enough to cause a person Ill will, then the schools and the people in them were worse. High school alone was enough to make you want to pull your hair out. It was an all out nightmare for me, having visions in the middle of class while standing in the front of the room trying to solve a problem on the black board was horrible. I was sent to the nurse when that happened, and she told me that I needed to go to the doctor to be checked for epilepsy, there is no way in hell I am going to tell anyone of what I see. If I were to tell that nurse that I am not epileptic but telepathic I am quite sure I would be on the first trip to the funny farm in a patty wagon. Now instead of telling the truth I let them think what they wish to think, that way they can find a normal explanation for my blackouts, even if the pills for epilepsy makes me sick. This is my burden to bear, even if it one day kills me.