Are you a seeker like me? Did you ever ask yourself about your life? Did you ever ask yourself why you are here in this world? Did you know what is your future? Do you really know what you really want to be?
There are so many questions in this life…This, That, Why, How and the like…Sometimes I end up asking myself why I do this and that. If you try to understand this world, the people living in it, their attitude, their culture and everything they do, I am sure you will end up loosing your mind.
Through experience we understand life…
Through problems we master life…
Through others we see our life…
My only question is, do we need to experience all the problems in this world for us to understand our purpose in life?
I just want to share to you my story:
I am a typical girl, simple dreams, and simple plans…
My father usually told me that I am a fighter, that among my siblings, I have strongest personality, smartest but hard headed…
I live with that expectations of my father…I live a life that full of struggles, I felt I became stronger every time I overcome one problem. I am a curious person, and I already tried every thing in this world in order to discover and understand my life…
I am a type of person that if I want something, I will never stop until I get it. I’ve done everything I could to prove that I already fulfill my life through my profession. I am a Planning Engineer, extremely organize and I always feel I am the smartest; I am the most important…
Until one day….I realized that I achieved nothing…
I live as if I have no friends at all…
I live as if nobody like me…
I live life without love…
I live as if nobody cares for me…
I live as if nobody understands me…
I live life of rejection and frustrations…
And realize that my life is so empty…
My frustrations end up with depression, and often ask my self, I am a planner but I don’t know how to plan my life…
Until one day….I cry…to GOD…
I ask Him why!!!!!!!
Why should I feel those things…?
Why should I feel rejected…?
Why people didn’t like me?
Why people don’t love me?
Why me?