I “woke up”, of course there was no waking up for me as there was no sleeping for me, so I “got up from bed” and went to the computer, as always. The same routine as always, check for any news from you. Of course news are always unexpected – she moves in her own way – but this one, this one was the worst. I hold on to the desk as I went through the email, I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t. When I finish reading it for the tenth time, I understood, I was supposed to stay away. She already said that before, but I thought she didn’t mean it. It’s amazing how from one second to another we lost everything we had. I supposed you lost everything before, but I didn’t. I still had hope, faith, but now, I lost it. And I guess it’s because I love you too much – as a friend – that I don’t fight back, and I won’t. Guess we are done; you closed the book on me. Goodbye and good luck.

I love you.