I don’t know everything but I know something. I am not completely stupid in fact I don’t think I’m stupid at all. I just make some messed up decisions sometimes but I’m trying to change the way I do that. Last night was not one of my good nights because my dad sent 50 dollars of my money to Joyce but everything is alright now. He did pay my college off with his check. I need to quit worrying about stuff all of the time it does no good to worry anyway. Nothing gets achieved by worrying! Nobody cares if you worry or not. I’m not meaning that in a rude way but it’s true. Nobody gives a damn about you. I’m starting to think that is true but I care about myself so screw what somebody says about you. I’ll be glad when all of my school work is completed. I’m ready for a break but I need to work hard and not take a break but what’s the point in that when you don’t even get credit for it. If you bitch and complain people will just find a way to replace you but even if they replace you, you must move on. You can’t sit around and cry like a little bitch like I’m doing right now. Stuff happens in this life that you don’t like just get used to it. I’m not preaching to you. I’m telling myself this stuff too. Alot of people make stuff more complicated than what it really is including myself. We just need to learn to take life as it hits us. I need to learn how to get off my ass and get the things that I want. All my life I’ve tried to please other people and honestly I hardly ever think about myself. That’s not a bad idea though. I just wish people would leave me alone I don’t want to get some pussy from a woman that I don’t even know or that somebody has set me up with. Besides I need to get myself in line before I even worry about a woman right now! I’m just tired of being lonely and I’m tired of the way some people act. You can’t control the way some people act. You can try to tell them not to act like that but that’s up to them if they listen or not. Life just pisses me off sometimes but I think it pisses everyone off sometimes. If I don’t want to say Hi to you, I shouldn’t have to say Hi to you. I know I sound like a fool but that’s just the way I feel right now. My feelings will change they always do. I’m not like some people who set their brain to feeling the same thing everyday. I’m not going to mention any names. I wish they would start back up prohibition again because I think people drink too much and they don’t know what they are talking about. That’s just my opinion though don’t shoot the messenger. I’m glad I got to live to see another day. I hope I get to see tomorrow and I hope tomorrow is better than today. I just have to make it that way. I shouldn’t be saying all of this stuff online but oh well I don’t really care. I’ve got to vent my feelings some way. I need to exercise more often. All I really need to do is stop worrying so much and grab life by the horns.