I don’t want to be scared to do stuff my whole life but everybody gets fear. Fear is just a part of life that everybody will have to face. I just want to see what’s best for Nicole and I think I’d be the perfect man for her. I don’t know why women don’t give me a chance they always see me as just a friend. I just want to know what a female thinks as boyfriend material or friend material. I know that women don’t want to feel like they’re trapped with just one man. I know a woman wants a man who can stand beside her and protect her from harm. I could probably protect my girl if I had one. I just have never been in that situation. I’m tired of waking up everyday not having a female. I still have to wake up everyday and do my best but what happens when it seems like your best isn’t good enough. Nicole would change me and I’d change her if she wanted me to but there isn’t really anything I’d change about her. She’s perfect from my point of view. I need to quit worrying about having a woman and get my priorities in line first. A woman doesn’t want a man who doesn’t know what he wants out of life. I know what I want but it seems like I never get what I want when it comes to women anyway. I should be thankful for the life I have because it’s the only life I have and I’m kind of thankful for it. I’d be even more thankful if I were rich but there’s even more problems you have when you are rich, I don’t know for sure but I think there is. I think everybody in this world has problems they just don’t want to show it because they are scared to show they have problems. They also don’t want anything taken away from them. If it wasn’t for my nieces, dad, sister, and family I don’t know what I would do and if it wasn’t for my good friends Andre, Nicole, Carrie even though we don’t talk very much any more, Joe, Matt, and Eric. I have too many great friends that love me. Oh I almost forgot Luisa, the friend that means the most to me! I can’t say there will always be tomorrow because there might not be. We as people try to stay all of the time happy because it takes more muscles to frown than to smile. I just don’t like smiling because I look like a redneck when I smile because I’m missing some teeth. Hopefully, next year I’ll get that taken care of! I need to get out more often and explore. Just because I get out doesn’t mean that I have to drink in fact I’m not going to drink because I made a promise to my sister and niece and I’m not going to break that promise! I’ve got to start acting like a man or people are just going to run me over and take advantage of me, I think people are already doing that but I’m letting them so I can’t complain. I wish Christmas will hurry up and get here and pass. I hope I get a good score on my Algebra final, I’ve got to start studying more. Life is too cool to sit around and sleep all day or be online writing journals all day like I’ve been doing! We shouldn’t worry about politics either. We should just do what we want to do. I want to start saving my money but I keep taking these overdrafts just to get by. So next time I take an overdraft I should just say no and walk away and get it completely out of my mind.