Mommy I just don’t understand … Your supposed to love me and be my best friend …Instead you hated me and wished that I was dead… You told me so but i still loved you though… I just don’t understand … What  did I do that was so bad?… I never got arrested… I never hit you back but you hated me it was plain to see… You never said I LOVE YOU…You never hugged me back… You used to call me ugly… You used to call me fat… But I still loved you and… You never loved me back… How could you leave your youngest child? You never called…You never wrote… You never said a single word… I just don’t understand… You left me as a baby… You never saw me grow… So what could i have done to make you hate me so?… When I was nine years old you met me at Mc Donalds… You filled me head with lies and empty promises… You told me that you wanted me… You told me that you tried… You made my dad look like an ass but your the one who lied… All the time you hit me and all the times I’ve cried…You made me think it was my fault you made me want to die…So when your lying on your death bed remember that I tried… I must admit you took me out of foster care but deep inside I know I was better of there… You used it against me as though you were doing me a favor… I wish you would have left me there… They treated me better!… They sheltered me for two whole years and never made me cry… I was with you for a month and I already wanted to die…You were a terrible mother… but at least you could have tried…