I believe God is protecting me from something, some ppl.

At the same time guys around me can be scary, like I’m a food and they are hungry

Stop thinking I’m a play-girl,I don’t think that word even exist. It’s annoying when people accuse you of something that you are not. 

In all relationships, I wasn’t the one who broke it off. To me, why should I destroy my happiness, but ppl see I’m a ‘player’ because of a guy’s uncertainty? or a guy’s unfaithfulness? or a guy’s confusion. STOP blaming me for these guys’ faults.

I notice that along the way to prove these ppl wrong, it hasn’t been easy. I committed to a guy who doesn’t want a relationship but keep questioning me where am I,who I’m with and what am I doing and I don’t even mind that, I like the fact that he cares.But fucked up thing was when I told the truth, he can’t stop accusing me of seeing other guys and stuff. I don’t ask him to trust me even though I was telling the truth, but just don’t accuse me of things I DIDN’T DO. His insecurity is too much that probably he was the one who was doing it.

Well anyways, I’m more confused now, do I say ‘OK’ to a well-respected person even when he started to screw up bit by bit.But you know you have to respect him for some unexplainable reason, coz next time, you’ll still see that person, and that person will be fine and give you the best guide,the guide that you need the most,ever. You hold on, cz you have faith. Who can answer me?

Im blurred out–what’s right,what’s wrong.Truth or lies. I’m gonna write some more later.