I want to break free. I want to go crazy. I want to break all the rules and norms. I want to go beyond inhibitions. I want to go out; pick a fight; pounce someone; get beaten; abuse someone; masturbate; make love; be rude; be a bitch; tell people to fuck off; show them their worth; take love from those i love; be expressive about my love; cry in front of everyone; laugh like a lunatic; show my emotions; kill someone; go skydiving, skinny dip, bungee jump; live like there’s no tomorrow; do everything i can think of; and get killed…knowing that i have lived my life with my rules!

Ah….if only……  now, time for reality check!!! I am in no delusion that i can achieve any of this. Therefore, what i really wish for, is to get married to someone against his wishes, get pregnant and die due to a complicated pregnancy. Everybody’s happy!!!