Society has a way of dictating to us how we should live our lives and behave during our day to day routines. Maybe it really isn’t society. Maybe it’s the way we were brought up believing we should do to others as we would want others to do unto us…all that mumble jumble crap our parents fed us while growing up. We were raised to know right from wrong, to marry and be faithful and to put up with whatever is thrown our way. Why? Why do we have to live a life of pretense? That is what we’re living isn’t it? A life of pleasing others while we wish for what we really want to do in life. Which most of us know we have a secret wish of REALLY living the life we believe will make us happy and whole.

We’re so afraid to do something out of the ordinary for fear of being ostracized and shunned. Yes our families will be hurt and even humiliated if we do something totally unacceptable. But what about what we want? Don’t we get to choose and do what makes us happy? Do we have to continue living a life of misery, sadness or emptiness just to make others happy? Who said we need to sacrifice our happiness for others? Why should we? If I knew then what I know now I would be living ‘la vida loca’. Ricky Martin knew exactly what he was saying when he wrote that song. I want to live my life how I want without the fear of worrying who I will hurt or what will they think of me in the process. I want to live! Why not? Do I wish to sit in a rocking chair at the age of 90 plus and regret not doing what I really wanted to do with my life? No, I want to sit in that rocking chair with a big ‘kool-aid’ smile on my face and say , ‘yeah…I lived a good life. I did good and bad things but it was all worth it because I did it for me.” 

That’s what this life is all about because we are not getting any younger, the opportunities are fewer and far in between and quite frankly, who should give a damn what we say or do? I’m sure secretly most of us are fantasizing about things we want to do or try out but due to whatever our current situations are, we’re going through the motions like robots and not ‘actually’ doing what we desire. Well some I’m sure have had their share of delving into the dark side without getting caught and I’m not necessarily referring to being unfaithful.  There are plenty of things we secretly wish to do and/or experiment with but we’re so set on walking that straight line we really wouldn’t know how to go about doing whatever it is we ‘think’ we’re missing out on.