I am 70 wanting to be 17. Help me decide if I have the right to love again.


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He is my man on the other side of silence, a bachelor when we tied our hearts with a kiss. I was twenty -three, (he was twenty-five) too young to be tied down to an empty marriage but which I would not walk away from because I had two kids.  

We were working at a local radio station  in Leyte, Philippines– he a newscaster, I  a disc-jockey. I wondered why  when I was on board, Danny often  requested me to play the song ”Unspoken”. It seemed to me  that he was  requesting it for me and I was playing it for both of us. My body would vibrate at his nearness and I    had eyes only for him. Was this love the second time around? I wished to goodness I would become cross-eyed, at other times I prayed for a miracle for me   to become neutered because  I  was getting emotionally disturbed. I often had indigestion. That was a sign that I wasn’t supposed to go farther.  He was a forbidden fruit, I was a good girl, seeing to it  that I would not trespass.  But, it always happened every day: I was  always remotely activating my disturbed feelings.  He was  tall, brown, with  Filipino-American features, his calm disposition and soothing voice like the “call of the wild ” as Jack London would put it. God, why are some people irresistible?

Ihad not been kissed  properly for a year by  my husband  and my young animal body resented it. So,  I researched what to do under such a disturbing  situation. The book said,  embracing provides the body with oxytocin, a “bonding hormone” that reduces stress, one that helps you unwind.  “Hug it out. Touching makes you healthy”,  certainly not an unreasonable suggestion when frustration and disappointment are factored in. 

One night while we were taping our individual programs, Danny put a small piece of paper on my hand. “Let’s get out of here.” Magnetized, I  followed him into the darkness. We kissed, sky the limit, one taste provoking another. I felt I was closest to heaven at the strange realization that he was everything I never knew but had always wanted, the guy who would  provide me with the bonding hormone my whole body needed.

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  • Lemon Blossom on Apr 11, 2011

    it definitely can.

  • KittyK on Aug 27, 2011

    Love is has no age limits and if you are available, I would get to Facebook and say “hello”…if you do not, you will be forever second guessing yourself and that lost and passionate emotion which is burning deeply inside. Let go….contact the man!

  • Socorro Lawas on Aug 29, 2011

    You are a very good adviser to the lovelorn. I’ll try if he is still available. It has taken some time since he had that message on Facebook.

  • Socorro Lawas on Sep 21, 2011

    Love is God’s greatest leveler: young and old, male or female, they love.

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