This is my apology to God, to the system of kharma, to all those Salvation Army people outside the stores that I passed by, to anyone that ever asked for help. I’m sorry.

You know the saying “Kharma is a (fill in the blank)”? Well it’s true. Warning to anyone out there about to do something or not do something. Be carfeful of your actions, they may come back to haunt you. It happened to me recently. And you see the thing about Kharma is that it doesn’t always come back on you directly. Sometimes it gets you where it hurts most. The ones you love. Recently my brother in law was hit by a drunk driver. He he had gone to get some bread for his dad. They said he was parking his scooter when he was ran over. Long story short about 2 weeks later and he’s still fighting for his life. The grief of all this caused his father to have a stroke and die. My father and law died of a broken heart. I held him waiting for the ambulance. I’ve never been in that situation before. 2 tradgedies too close together.

I was determined to make it. My sister in law had enough to pay for the medical bills. Even if that meant our plans of getting a new home, and rebuilding daddy’s house would be thrown out the window. Starting over is always hard, but possible. But then our money ran out. We spent everything we had. No worries. I had a plan. We buried my father in law, and I began trying to raise some money to pay for Wawin’s medical bills.

I started off by asking family and friends for money. They gave a little. God bless them. And then I thought I should spread the word to the rest of Facebook, and wherever else I could. So I made this post with a brief story of the situation on my blog http://www.redhotpogo.com , and a link on how to donate. In this post I said that if you can’t donate then please share this post. I was thinking okay this is going to spread around, and we’ll be saved. Nope.

People ignored the post. No money came in. No one shared the post. But I wasn’t going to give up. I went to everyone’s Facebook walls and posted the link with “Share this Save a Life”.  Still no one shared it. The only thing I got was warning messages from people not to post on their wall. Wow. It’s so frustrating to think about how selfish, greedy, lazy people are. I was begging anyone for money. You can’t take a second. Just a second to share the post with your friends? It’s a simple click to save someone’s life.

So I’ve been angry at the world for ignoring me. And then I started thinking about all those times that people asked me for help, and I said “I don’t have enough.”  Anything is more than enough. So this is what Kharma feels like.

I’m Sorry. Now please help my brother.