This is the first time I would speak about love.  For the sake of everyone, I would not tell something untrue.  In fact, everything would be coming from my own experience and what I feel right now. Yes, I would really like to burst my heart open right now.

Am I keeping myself from loving a special someone?

As she took her seat in the front row, unexpectedly, I caught myself staring at her.  I was mesmerized by the glow I see around her and the vibrant sparkle within her eyes.  At that moment, I know I was tangled with infatuation.

A simple smile from her would make my day.  A simple talk would make my week. A long conversation would make my month.  A walk along the hallway would make my year.  A simple touch would make me crumble and beg for air.  That is how I feel for this special girl whom I met 3 years ago.

After 1 year since we met, I know I fell in love.  It was hard to explain why, well, I believe that there is no reason for true love.  What my heart feels was unimaginable.  I always want to see her everyday and talk to her.  But everything I want was not that easy at all.  It was like throwing a pebble on to a wall and hoping that it would create a crack just to see an effect.  Unfortunately, I somehow know that the love I feel was the weakest love for her.

One time, I was surprised by what she had said.  She likes me.  I was happy, but at that moment, I was the most stupid guy in the world.  I was seeing someone else, due to the fact that I was being ignored by her. I was looking for love, worst of all, the love I was looking was from her.  I keep on imagining women as her, so every time I get into a relationship, I always imagine it was her.  I am quite obsessed, that I know.  I have a crazy mind? yes I know.  Now I am full of regrets.

I was able to cut my strings with women.  I  was hoping for another chance with her, but I know it would be impossible.  

Everyday I think of her. Everyday I always wish that I will have a chance to see her, to catch a glimpse of that vibrant glow and sparkling eyes. Everyday, I am hoping for a chance to bring back everything we lost, or our friendship at least.

My love for her is still overflowing in my heart.  Sometimes, I just want to run towards her and shout my love for her but I simply cannot.  I am weak to face her.  I feel too much loneliness when I think of this inevitable fact that I lost her trust and cannot regain it anymore.

To everyone, if you know that you love someone.  Let them feel it right at the moment you realized that what you feel is true.  Do not waste any moment for it will just cause you regret.  Do not break any ones trust and be faithful about what you feel.

Today, I keep this love, hoping that there will come a time when she will speak to me and let me tell her what I really feel.  It is really hard to keep yourself from loving someone you cannot resist to love.

There are 7 billion people in the world.  Do not believe on what most men say, “there are many fishes in the sea”, for those fishes also chooses the bait to eat.