It seems as though that it is hard to love again once you lose that special someone in your life.You find yourself comparing every person that you meet to the one you lost and ending up closing doors that you want to keep open. Life starts becoming very gloomy and less filled with hope. Can you live after love? Well I know that it was hard for me. I did exactly what I stated and still continue to do so. I know that its not healthy but i continue to create this picture in my head of the perfect girl. Is it an envision of the girl I lost or is this a girl that I envision being the one that will end up sweeping me off my feet. I don’t even know if there is such a thing as a perfect girl. But I think I would like someone who doesn’t try to hide the fact that they are imperfect. How do you get someone off your mind that was completely on your mind day after day? Do you build up anger and hate them? Because its easy to be stubborn when she wont come back to you. Or do you blame yourself and keep hurting your self-esteem which causes you to not move forward. Is it bad that I still think about her? My wish is to move forward and never look back! Never again traveling the same road. I just want to cleanse myself of all the memories and pain, and forgive everyone including myself and be free. I think i am still latched to her because I haven’t found no one like her to sweep me off my feet! So I continue to holding on to my soul keeping every thing inside and hiding my emotions from the world pretending that everything is OK. Is this suppose to be life after love?

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