I have been married to my trucker for almost 6 years now. At times I don’t think it is worth it. He is gone a lotnly home maybe 2 days at a time. He is very moody all the time lately. He was a company driver for years, now he has had this brainstorm to lease his own truck. STUPID idea with the way the economy is now. The truck is eating up all money he would make leaving us in a big hole. I know he loves his job and is good at it one of the few left that are actually safe drivers out there. But the stress and worry is not worth it at this point. I am just stressed over all of this I guess. With 3 kids to raise and school starting soon I just dont know how we are going to make it.  I am here all the time just me , kids and our animals. I sometimes wonder if there are other women out there going through this too because I do feel all alone, like no one can relate to me at all. i guess I sound like I am complaining, I’m not. I know he sacrifices   being out there all the time away from his family, I really do. But he does not realize the stress and strain of worrying here at home. There is always that what if? It is dangerous out there for anyone and a lot of crazy people on the road.

His health is not good, having to have all kinds of test done to try to figure out what is wrong. What if he has to be off work? He is the only one working and there are no jobs around here for me. Daycare would eat up anything I could  bring in working. I just wish someone else in the same situation could talk to me and reassure everything is going to be OK…..