I have for over one and a half decade wanted another being in my life to be my companion all because i have lost my dog i have tried to replace that empty void with that of another pet however my parents are reluctant to buy me one small pet even a frigging fish is denied to me, however my sisters are allowed to buy a pair of birds and eventually on died and one fled and they were replaced by two new ones and when my sisters left for university the birds were given away for free to some guy.

Since i came to have any sort of memory this piece of shit D.Modhavadia has been a plague in my life he has traveled long and far so that he and his concubines may pick away at my life and that of those who may give a dam about me. This includes my adopted family whom i hold ever so close to me they mean so much and more to me, they have been denied what should be theirs and instead a fat pig and his inbred family are torturing them at will and I’m held prisoner in the but munchers houses and once they have something to do the send me over to another house so that the torture can continue and i don’t see and end in sight, off-course the torture happens at night time when I’m asleep and once they are done they erase any memory of what has happened, i know this because i get up with sometimes with unbearable pain and sometimes there are shrouded figures standing before me and i could make out who they are, one is MR Modhavadia and the other are his family members and henchmen, who are really assholes and lustful scums, unfortunately two of them are my close relatives, more soon.

For quite a while the torture remained physical and i was able to handle it in my sleep and i had very little or no problems with that at all but recently they have resorted to mental and emotional torture by means of visions and messages. They 1st go inside my head and find a person that i really like of in many cases love. So they take me consciousness and they they project an illusion like I’m talking and falling in love with that person and they produce an illusion  like I’m in a relationship with that person and it feels great and because i don’t know if it’s happening or not i go in with arms open and what do i get, instead of me holding her one of them is holding her and once i was able to feel a kiss from her, i still have some left over feelings for that beautiful girl of my heart and dreams, anyway that ship has sailed and if i kept hanging on not only she will be used i would have a weak point in myself for them to exploit so i have pushed her aside, i wish it’s love i cant push her out so easily i long to see her and touch her and hold her in my arms and to hug her but they  are hiding her in plain sight and she has been disguised to my eyes.