….i dont know what happened. it would be a complete lie if i said i do. i dont know why this happened. and to explain, i wouldnt try if i could. deep inside i feel so empty as if i’ve been created with a hollow thought. nothing. thats what it is. nothing. it seems as though the only thing in me is a spin wheel of feelings. but what do i feel. do i feel happy. do i feel sad. do i feel confused. do i feel… what. what do i feel. the wheel goes round and round but never stops. as if its true feeling are nowhere to be found. lost is what it is. lost is what i feel. as if my life is a compass. do i go left. do i go right. do i go north. do i go south. what is it. being lost and in a sea of nothingnes you see your life start to unravel. just to look up for a split second and misseverything. you just simply become lost. but why. why do i have to be lost. why do i have to be in a sea of nothing. why does that wheel inside me keep spinning. why. why. why. never will i know the answer. never will i find what im suppose to feel. never will i be happy. never will i be sad. never will i rise from this devoted sea of nothing. i stretch myself to physically feel what i should. but…. nothing. insanity and reality are two different things. but are similar. to be in insanity and feel nothing. to reach out in reality and feel nothing. why. why must two different things have a similar devotion. maybe its just the concept of it all. or maybe its just…. nothing at all……..