Has anyone figured this out? Why search for love when you have love right in front of you?

Maybe I should have written an article about what I thought the soul was first before I jumped right into being in love and searching for it. But I think that the soul is kind of like life, we aren’t quite sure how to define it but we accept it as a part of ourselves.

Why then does love become such a persistant quest for our souls? And why then is the way we love another sometimes not enough for them to recieve? I think I could write articles about love and soulmates for the rest of my life just because they truly are two things that never go out of style.

I guess I should ask in this quest for our souls in finding love, why it’s so difficult for some souls to just have one love? When I speak of love in this sense it’s an intimate love, that deep connected soulmate love. Is it okay to search for another because you think that there is a better love beyond the one you already have? That’s the part that I don’t understand.

Is that also human nature? To search for something better even if the something better isn’t there? Is it the hope that there is something better that one searches for?

For me I have a love greater then I have ever felt in my life. A love that surprised even me. I am a lover, I am aware of this but my love and loyalty don’t always go hand in hand. I will be loyal to you even if you are not loyal to me but my love may not always stay the same. The idea of searching for something beyond what I feel is impossible because I wouldn’t find it.

In the past my love has changed not because I want to searching for a better kind of love, for me it’s because the love you once gave me has changed. This is how I see it. I can love a shrub because of it’s quality but I could never be in love with a shrub. If you decided to tell me that you are no longer “in love” with me I will move on in my life.

Falling in and out of love is not a concept I understand. It’s love or it isn’t. It can vary in intensity but it’s evident or it’s not. That’s what confuses me so much about searching for love when you have someone who loves you from the depths of your being.

Perhaps that is why people search for a different kind of love? The search for a different kind of love is the ultimate test of the lover? Can you still love that person who is searching for a different kind of love from the depths of their being if you know that they needed someone else?

Alas, I will never know the answer. But I think that is why love is the greatest feeling of them all. When you have found the person with whom every molecule of their selves you feel in the depths of your own being, you don’t need to search for someone else.

The one quest of the soul for me has been accomplished. I just wish he hadn’t searched because then I knew it was me his mission for love had been accomplished. Then I would be the one he felt love for in every molecule of his being. If he did would he still have searched?  

I don’t love him any less for thinking that there might be a different kind of love for him to have. That’s just the quest I’m questioning. But I can guarantee that the love I have for him is greater then anything I have ever experienced in my life before. It still makes me sad to think that his love might not be like that.

It’s so easy to love isn’t it?  But the tough part is realizing how much the other soul really does.