I seem to aquire the worst memory a person can be offered. After words have been excreated through my clean mouth, it’s no longer than 50 seconds until I question what I had just endured into articulate words. It’s not even just verbalization that I forget, it’s also the actions I perform that seem to obliterate. Ex: Just moments ago I had no memory of clicking the Internet Explorer icon on my desktop. I’m guessing in the near future I will convince myself that I am zainy due to my memory loss. I don’t want to wake up one day getting ready for an event to just forget why I am performing such actions. That would be pretty scary huh?

While their are things I seem to loose focus on, I will never forget how Mason completely avoided my existance today at school. I like to spend time with him at lunch and have in depth conversations. He was present today at school, but the spot where we hang out at.. he did not show. It was just me and my boyfriend Andrew. Sitting outside alone, in the hot cold weather as the wind swayed my choppy layered hair in his face. Our bodies were being abused by the suns warmth as we waited patiently for Mason to arrive. I took off my plain ragged shirt for hope that the sweat would disolve into my un-natural tan skin (Don’t worry, I had a tank on unerneath). Although the weather seemed to ameliorate Andrew’s temperature. – Come to find out, Mason was inside on the benches, completely being detached from my presence. .. So I messaged him on myspace confronting his default and he said he just wasn’t ready to see me because he needed to get his thoughts organized. [I forgot to mention last night he confessed his smitten feelings to me, but I told him how I was inlove with Andrew] So I can understand why he deliberatly avoided me, but he didn’t have to be so brusque about it; he could have at least warned me first.

(Sigh), here is to another dissapointment of trust.