Hush hush here they come, you better do it or they will kill you. They are chanting his name, he is being prepared for something bigger, do you hear them who are you talking to what is that smell where did this come from where are those how did that happen what is that i see that . that cant be real. seeing is believing, mind over matter, don’t you remember me ruby, we did it, he is going to die before he turns a year old, she is laughing at me when I ask how he is. I hear him scream, the last thing that I have of my Ashman is that scream, ‘He is not here, he is gone, I gave him to the state’, laughing. Its not funny why did you do this to me they are hissing at me, asking family about the truth and doesn’t help, they agree with the horrors, fornicating like dogs in the street, put this on and do this to me no your not doing it right you stupid bitch, don’t you know how to do it right. Run Ruby run he thinks he is the worlds gimp the radio is a factory damn radio how the fuck wont it break after hitting it so hard after fifteen times, is it wired he keeps talking into it shut the fuck up, i have to decide how to kill you shut the fuck up where are they, trunk full of water in the wilderness naked tied up with a n extension cord, nobody seems to notice that I am naked, graves everywhere bones everywhere full spines “The bones inside.’ oh god why, why  the little girl fresh blood where is she rope chicken foot a chair and doggy bone what does that mean damn ti i cant take it anymore the people sexually abuse the babies till their first year and they kill them before a year because they are like used dolls just little toys, only to be thrown away. so brutally tortured and abused on to be left tattered and torn, please not my baby mommy please go get my baby they are going to hurt him. Oh Ruby,  its okay  they said he was fine and they had it all taken care of how do I say that they are using my baby as toy and going to throw him away i don’t believe it months go by locked up not having anyway to him but saved at the same time because they are serious and I’m not suppose to be able to utter one single word about their evil wickedness.  Maybe it is all in your head, ring ring hello no dont do this ‘Ashtons dead’ to me. Oh god no please no run run run ruining, front of a car run in the street oh god please no,strike me down i don’t deserve to live why couldn’t i save him do you have a tranquilizer to give her. this cant be happening please hello do you want to tell me something no I don’t have anything to tell you, click. I felt the utmost hatred at that moment, how could this woman not want to tell me oh no its all true. is everyone really dead really am i left here in purgatory was Ashton sacrificed to the devil he made me say that give Ashton the devil he forced me to. how could i let him do that to me. the devil is very evil and he is hard to fight but lord i think this i have made all the right moves/ hello,my son just died in you house and you cant even tell me about it what the hell happened. broke neck dog is dead dog was bitten by a rattlesnake a couple of months before this happened/she is reading my palm in jail and there is a tragedy  right around the corner, that will change your life forever/ at chow he just stands there in the window watching me. its so bad that i cant even wait anymore for  the tray or go get my drink someone else had to get it for me/baby dolls and puppy dog tails are the ways to open heavens gate. what is that? It is a spell throw it away/do you know that they make meth out of charcoal from human flesh and bone? I can’t let the thoughts I have interfere with my mind. I am a strong person and I fear only the lord and I also fear being betrayed sit here right now I am so tired of the untrustworthiness  and the fight to try to trust. I do not have to live like this. My life is better than this damn it i have many goals and every step forward is slapped right back to ten step back.