Every one of us has fears within that really make us helpless and incompetent at times. Just like Clark Kent aka Superman, he came from the planet called Krypton but is afraid of kryptonite. So does you or me. I am afraid of a lot of things but as I go on with life I try to be courageous enough to face all of them. Because I believe it’s one way of dealing life accordingly. In my lifetime, I used to be afraid of two things. 1. I am a claustrophobic. Being in a close room without ventilation makes me really sick. It’s as if in just a matter of minutes I might suffocate my self to death. I once felt this when we visited a cave in Bolinao, I think it’s somewhere in Patar. It’s a steep stairs going down the cave when I saw it. I was wondering if I can go down there and not falling. Visiting the place is more than an adventure to me; it was really fun so why not try the heck out of it? While approaching, I felt like blushing or something. I felt a little nauseated and chilled. But then I still went on. My mama said that I look pale she asked me if I’m ok then I said yes. Still I went on and suddenly, I felt the shortness of my breath and I told my husband we should get back upstairs. My mama and hubby Joel accompanied me upstairs and got some air. I used to feel the same way when I get in to some small comfort rooms or bedrooms like that. So what I would do is that I let the door open para to tell my self that it’s going to be ok inside. If you’re thinking if I live in a mansion or something because of my situation, well, not really. It’s not a mansion alright but actually my parents house is just enough for us because we have a big family. And I think claustrophobia runs in the family too. My Papa is a bug guy and he thinks that he won’t fit in a small room. So he made sure that we all fit comfortably in a not so big house but just enough for us to breath. I now live in our own crib which Joel bought before we got married and I must say that it’s only good for a small family. 7 kids and 2 parents and 1 my uncle will not fit for a day’s visit. That’s why sometimes my Papa only sleeps in the living room. He only slept at the master’s bedroom when he’s not bringing the other half members of the family and I decided to switch on the ac to freshen up the people sleeping inside and that includes me. When I am alone I make sure there’s enough ventilation para to feel more comfortable inside. When in rest rooms I make sure na I make paalam to somebody para hindi sila sumusugod dun while I’m in there. So kahit papano I managed to face that fear just don’t let me ask to go to some pila or siksikan coz I can’t live there. For sure I will die agad! 2. I have a fear of Centipedes. Centipedes are actually the ones with a long-flat many legged arthropod. Some are venomous and some aren’t. When I see them crawling I was actually loosing my mind in an instant. I shout hysterically and d I totally scream at the top of my lungs. Sounds exaggerated but it’s true. You can ask any body from here. I used to ask my self how and why am I so disgusted with centipede where as I used to be expose with those when I was young. You can see them swimming sa baha where in our old house was actually drowned from flood water. Well at least the garden pala up to the terrace utmost. Probably because I was almost beaten by it noon I was a kid. And it left a not so noticeable long scar the back of leg. And now after a long time I am again exposed to it and I can even see them sa garden, sa bathroom and every where I can imagine. Sometimes I get to think that every time na naiisip ko sila that’s the time they would appear crawling creepily. There’s this one incident at home when I was taking a bath in my parents’ bath room when I suddenly saw something moved at the back of my eyes. When I turned around, I saw a wickedly looking brown fat disgusting centipede and my initial reaction was to scream at the top of my lungs and runaway from there. I am not sure if they have ears or something because every time I move it’s as if it going my way trying to frighten me to death. And then I reached for the door knob and flew away from there where my parents saw me naked! Yes! I was blushing alright because I wasn’t really able to cover myself and they’re both laughing when they knew what cause me to scream like a siren. Up until now I believe that this is the only fear I can not face. I can’t even hold a dead one and that for me is the first step to face them bravely. And probably, Kuya Kim can help about this fear that is why I emailed him for some info that could help me deal with it. Still hoping for a response though. Sometimes I used to think that I should consult a shrink about my fears. Sometimes I thought of these fears as harmless but still I am still not able to get over with it. Still, I don’t know why how they deteriorate me even if I keep on thinking I’m too old enough to be so afraid of something that is so smaller than I am. These fear keep leaving me so trembling and hopeless.