Views on certain philosophy and other thoughts

                    Christopher J. York
                         6/08

Since the beginning of our existence as a people, humans have looked into space and wondered about the stars, have thought up theories and philosophies about how and why we exist. Now, although a theory isn?t a truth until proven true, it can in fact still be a truth. This is my self assurance that anything I may believe or think up, can be true unless proven otherwise.
I know very little about science, in fact I don?t know a lot about life in general, I?m only seventeen. But I have found that if you do not ask questions, then you do not always receive answers. And trust me, I?ve got questions?
A lot of the things I discuss were other people?s ideas I?m just using them to help open up my mind and if there is a reader, the readers mind. I have also added in my own idea?s.

                   
Let me start off with something simple yet I find still boggles my mind, materialism.
I have seen in my short seventeen years a great deal of this and have pondered on it many a day. I was born into a world of materials, whereas everyone owns materials or better yet do the materials own them?
Some people may believe that all thoughts, feelings, willpower and so forth only exist in the form of solid material, yet if I had not written these thoughts down tonight they would no doubt not exist in the way they now do, so there for where I may not be able to understand this whole philosophy, I may later learn enough to do more than touch on its subject.
Happiness?
How can one determine what is true happiness and what we believe makes us happy?
Suppose no one has ever truly been happy, but has been deceived by a similar emotion?
For instance, one may believe to be happy when they taste a certain flavor or see something they enjoy, like a clear sky or a bright moon, but as soon as that goes, where does that sopposed happiness wander to?
Perhaps that is a false happiness, or perhaps it is a fleeting glimpse of a much bigger concept.
Can happiness be found in your first child? Or will that false feeling simply disappear after it first rebels?
Maybe it can be found in a serene state of mind, whereas it could not be found in a material, seeing as materials come and go, or maybe happiness truly is a fleeting emotion? Yet if it were( which I find hard to believe,) then I will never be content.
Until that day that I may stumble upon this truth, if a day such as that ever arrives, then I will express those views as I do now.
Love?
Another trickster of emotion which I have pondered on with more thought than is perhaps necessary given my short years. How do you know if you are in love? And what does being in love constitute? Would you know that you are in love if after being with them you had a spring in your step or an ache in your heart when they left? Could you possibly say you are in love with someone because they make you happy? (If you have just read my views on happiness then perhaps you may understand) if that was not enough to deter you from what you believe is happiness than let me converge both views to meet a common end. If you were to say you were in love with someone because they made you happy, wouldn?t you then be conforming to a fleeting happiness, rather than a permanent one, seeing as people die and go just as easily as they come? Yet if you refuse to love because of this will you be one step forward to true happiness or two steps back?
Although I refuse to be hindered by this fleeting trickster that allows me to believe I am happy, I refuse to believe I should not love. Now I find my mind wandering, pulling at a certain idea that I have entertained for some time. this idea is that our world is merely a matrix, or perhaps the heavens would be the matrix, whereas a matrix would be a false reality where earth stands and the heavens are the true reality. If this were true, what a re we dreams conceived by some mad god? I find that this can?t be true, same as Descartes couldn?t because I am a thinking being or rather a thinking thing. *1
So is there a god? One can believe by means of faith, or one cannot believe for lack of faith, but one will never truly know?
But say that after this life passes we do meet a higher power, would we simply know we were meeting it seeing as we no longer have a functioning brain? If we do not have a functioning brain then I deduce that we have no functioning body, and therefore no way to propel and cause movement, so then what matter of movement, without the ability to propel would allow us to traverse the planes of the matrix, into the planes of the higher power? In this life I will never know if there is a god, but perhaps one day ill find a type of true faith that can subdue my hunger for knowledge and quell my minds racing thoughts.