I am speechless right now. I feel numb my feelings overwhelm me. For two days I could not sleep just thinking what it would be like what would be the first thing I say or do to you, and the more I thought about it the faster my heart would race, but I always came up with the same answer and realized that it had nothing to do with sex. I wanted to wrap my arms around you and hold you and whisper in your ear how nervous I was and let you feel how fast my heart was beating, but I guess it was not meant to happen as you were probably relieved.