Cover of 18 Again!

My puberty was a hell. I was so very insecure about everything. My looks, my teeth, face, clothes. My personality. I did not like myself everything about me was wrong.

At the end I locked myself up in the house. Most off the time I went to my bedroom and did not come out for hours. Off course I went depressive and you could see it on my face, the dark wrinkles under my eyes. I was totally unhappy and tried to avoid anybody! School was a mess and I did not receive a diploma.

I never enjoyed my live as a teenager. It supposed to be a great time your youth and the time you get to meet the man and falling in love, go shopping with your girlfriends and living it all! Go to parties dress sexy and use alcohol and smoke. With me it only got more worse. I neglected my teeth and the teeth in front off my mouth were filled with holes so I never laughed again!

I came from a poor family so money for buying clothes: there was not. People say that they want to be 18 again well not me! Honestly, I never want to be young again! I am glad I am almost 40 years now and much has changed. I cannot take spoiled people it irritates me. Be happy by what people give you and do not say I do not like the food! Really then shut up just say nothing! Be happy with what you have and do not wine but look for new opportunities! Crying and wining, only the sound it is so poor! I really hate it!

I feel way better of myself and can handle all the problems I am and will face in my live! I have a lot off persuasan. I am stubern but it has to do with my life. Because I always had a low self estime I was mostly alone and did everything alone. I went through a lot in my live and learned it the hard way. I never get to choose the way off roses. My opnions are some times totally different then most people because in most cases I stood in another one’s shoes so my judgement is different on people. I have become also harder. That is one issue I am still working on. I am also glad never  to have to get my drivers licence all over again! In The Netherlands it is difficult and complicated to get your drivers license, sometimes it takes thousands off dollars to get your drivers licence. So therefor I am glad not to do that ever again. So do not give me that cliche line: I wish I was 18 again! No way! Loving Greetz Ingrid