Being a bloody writer is actually quite painstaking for me now.  The most therapeutic and enjoyable pastime, now leaves me without a word in my heart that stays on the paper. A million different beginnings,with no endings, No easy flowing  book or short story to speak of, and i know I’m a writer. 

I just cant get the perfect parts into the right place. A perfect start with a less than perfect ending is no use, even those together and a less than perfect middle isn’t either. 

I want a really perfectly written and unique piece of work that comes right from the heart, and i am beginning to think my hearts the problem.

Again fun turns serious, lighthearted thoughts go deep. And everything i write turns to boredom on a page! 

So i write pointless garbage now and believe me it’s not by choice, its in hope! My love of writing and the millions of pages before this one ,  will hopefully amount to something. 

Funnily the middle of this piece of creative writing, i can see from here. Even the end is visible and yes it’s far from perfection but they all drag on together, giving me ample space to drone on and keep complaining.

Any minute now i could be inspired and just stop without another word, move on to my amazing new perfection on a pad and forget this ever existed. 

Though i may be kind enough to Finnish what i started, as a sort of thank full goodbye. 

Who knows?

I don’t even know where I’m at either at the minute,, beginning middle end (ish) what seems like hours of senseless writing, won’t even fill a chapter.

Thinking of those  big simple children’s books that read one or two words per page, filled with bright and sometimes pointless pictures. Would put this to shame at the minute.

My total lack of drawing skills could add shame or maybe humour right now, but I’ll leave that until i need to totally distract anyone or confuse anyone enough that’s been kind enough to act interested even till now. Any one reaching my artwork should ask themselves one question. 

Can it get much better than this? 

Well as I’m writing I’ll tell you the answer now. 

Yes it becomes the best part of this total waste of time. And I’ll Finnish with some really cool bubble writing and might even add a few poems. mmmmm that should be fun, quite looking forward to that now. 

As i still have pages and pages to get though until then, i will need to change the direction and write a total change of chapter, like just changing the subject. Literally.

END OF CHAPTER 1 And the end of the beginning!

CHAPTER 2 

Long before the middle (A must read pmsl)