I hold my head high,
hiding behind a smile
hoping they don’t see
The emptiness still inside me.

Time and time again I look back
praying that I will find the strength
that I feel I lack.

I try to move forward instead of
standing still.
Why can I not get over this hill.
I know certain things happened which
were not because of me
so why can’t people let things be.

I am tired of feeling that I was the only
one to blame.
No one else has taken responsibility for
fanning the flame.

These feelings that I try to hide
I know I must overcome and let go
of the anger and the hurt.
I wish for the time that the shadows in my heart
will finally subside.

When will come the day that  I may start anew?
I hope the person that I used to be can
return stronger for the things I have been through
and forgive a past that did not go according to
my plan.