“Sam, we’ve got to be realistic, think this through, it’s not that I don’t like you, no really it’s not… it- it’ll never work between us. I have to be mature. I have to make an adult desition… I’m sorry… I have to pull out of this. I have to let go. I’m so sorry…You’ve gotta think of what everybody would say!” Josef explained, a voice filled with desperation.
“You’re only saying this ‘cause I trust you, You made me trust you, and now I’m not good enough for you, or what you want. You wanted friends with benefits, I need more. But you couldn’t possibly cope with something like that, can you, little Joey? Can’t deal with emotions can you? You could never commit, you could never let yourself even have a chance of getting hurt. Well I couldn’t either. You think it’s easy for me to put myself out there like this? To lay everything out for you to step on? But I still tried. I tried for you Josef, because you need someone like me. But nothing I ever do would make you want me… admit you love me… need me like that, can it?” Sam shouted back, with tears in his eyes.
“You want emotions? Fine Sammie. I love you. I’m in love with you, I’m desperately uncontrollably hopelessly in love with you…but think about it rational. We can’t be like this. We can’t be together. We can’t be seen in public. There are so many reasons, Sam. While I was with you, I never slept with anyone else, no matter what you were thinking in that pretty little head of yours Sam, and now cutting everything off, I’m letting go. I’m leaving, You won’t ever have to see my retched face again.’ Josef was bitter. More bitter than he’d ever been before in his life.
“No… Don’t do this. What do I have to do, what do I have to say? What would convince you we can tell people?” Sam needed Josef… Needed him to make him feel loved, to stop herself falling to pieces thinking about all those missed opportunities, he needed Josef to keep her sane. Josef kept him together. He was the missing piece of the puzzle.
“There is nothing you can do Sam… I’m sorry this happened, I’m sorry this is. I’m sorry. Just know, that I care, that I love you, and I will never, ever stop loving everything you are, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” was it, was the last thing he got to hear, before Josef  took a moment to look deep into Sam’s eyes, and walked away out of Sam’s life for good.
It was just another regret Josef had to live with.