And the dead bodies I saw as a kid? Well, some people just die in a tragic way and need help to get to the light. This tunnel of light is also mentioned by many who had a near death experience. That is why they look for it and they often are so desperate, that they do not understand that they might show in the form of how their body looked when they died and that this can be a grim sight. Also they might not understand that they were talking to a six year old, since spirits do not see the world as the living.

While growing older I did learn to control my “skills” and discovered that the sights of mutilated bodies did stop. I can still feel things around from time to time and am still open to help out, but as far as I can feel, it is for both me and the spirits nicer that they would show themselves in the form of a person when they lived and not as a corpse.

For a long time I also denied my sixth sense and realised that at the end my empathy went down and I also became down in the material world. So training seemed best. When you are a psychic, I think you just have to learn and live with it.

Now that I accepted that I might indeed not be “normal”, I do feel better. Strangely enough I can handle life better now that I let go of my sceptics and accepted that I may also be a part of the spirit world. It helped me to cope with depressions and other mental problems I had when I denied my gift, that I for a long time saw as a curse.

So people who call me a nutcase are free to do so. I know that I am. But when I was a kid I pitied myself for not being “normal” like them. Now I kind of pity them for many of them were bullies back then and remained as adults and I will just presume they are not seeing the wisdom on the other side.