Today, September is now at its end. Hours to go and here comes October, still, I feel like a seventeen year old girl. Want to know why?
I am a type of girl who is very considerate and appreciative in everything I have and had. But sometimes, being like this sucks~ Everyone thought that I will be contented in all the things that will happen. Yeah, maybe I am, but not all the time I guess. Like in this scenario: Last September 19, was my 18th birthday. I have so many plans with regards on how and where to celebrate it. Even last term’s schedule was too tight for me to think about these debut stuffs, I still find time for me to create a memorable day within that date. 
Everyone knows that my dad is out of the country for work. Me and my dad already talked about, him, going home before my birthday and that he will be there in my celebration. But weeks before, he told me that he could not make it due to some work stuffs and I HATE IT!!! So much~ gosh!~ I felt like everything I wanted for was ruined. So much depression after hearing those words from him. But even though I felt that way, I still tried to understand the situation. So I decided to make a simple celebration here in our home yet, it didn’t turned good as well and it was so disappointing. Yeah~ even though some of my friends manage to get here and made me happy somehow, when they left, I felt so alone:(
The next day, September 20, I celebrated my day with my block mates. We went to Shakey’s and got this ice cream for free:D But, even though I celebrated it, it didn’t felt that way. Yeah~ I enjoyed being with them friends but it’s nothing like celebrating it the usual way.
Then these thought popped up in my mind: “Bute pa yung kapitbahay namin, kahit simpleng 18 chuchu lang nagkaron siya at nacelebrate ng bongga kahit paano.” “Bute pa si chorva~ may cotillion eh~ mas nakaka’angat pa nga yung family namen sa kanila” Not that I’m insecure to them, it’s just that I want to have EVEN a SIMPLE celebration of it the usual way. But I don’t know how to do it cuz it’s already October:D
Right now, I DEMAND a debut celebration..LOL But really now, I did not felt that I turned 18 weeks ago. And I hate that, that date just passed me by~