Where did the old days go?

We would drive to Chattanooga and walk on the bridge at 3 in the morning. On rainy nights we would stay in and play GTA3 on the playststion till we couldn’t hold our eyes open any longer. Talking on the phone like no one else in the world existed. Driving to North Carolina just because we have never been there before. Being happy all the time for no reason. Standing in the kitchen laughing at cupcakes. The memories we share are like nothing in the world. Living without a care in the world. This is how I remember us.

Now we look at each other bored. We play board games waiting on the children to get home from school. We have became lame. This is not how I pictured my life at this age. We still drive to strange places for no reason. We just don’t go as often. Now you are about to have another child and move up north. How do I continue without my bestfriend? You are the only person that hasn’t hurt me in anyway. I wish you wouldn’t move. Now when we talk on the phone you put me on hold. You text people while we are talking. I feel like I have already lost my bestfriend. I have lost my husband so why not lose you too. I don’t understand why all the people I get close to leave me. Maybe one day someone will stay and be friend. The end is here for us now. How we handle this will determine if the friendship was real.