In relation with my goal that pushed me to go to the city, I realized that job-seeking consumes a lot of time and costs a lot of money. That every move in the city means money, not like in the province that I can just go around without even a peso in my pocket. I realized that I spent a big amount of money everyday just because of my vices and other activities. I already stayed in the city for more than six months but I was not able to find a job because of stiff competition, or with other reasons I don’t know. On top of that, I did not focus myself on what I am doing. I just took for granted some of my interviews and even miss some of them. In fact, there was a time that I pretended to be sick so that I can not come to the interview for a newspaper company.

I was awaken by the fact that I am already drowned, that I was blinded from the reality. I just didn’t realize how my parents strive hard just to earn money so that I have something to spend in the city. But I was just blind to see that they were making too much sacrifices just make me happy and hoped that someday, I could uplift them from poverty. I felt guilty for myself and I was also ashamed on what I did. Until time came that I decided to go home and stayed there so that even just for a month, I could correct the mistake that I made, so that my parents could rest and breathe from their very untiring job in the farm. I realized that there should be a perfect balance between the efforts exerted by the parents and by the child/children so that their task will become successful, in my case, to find a job.

After a month, after repenting with the big mistake that I made, I went back to the city with a firm hope that I will finally find a job which would meet my needs and the needs of my family as well. I went with the flow of stiff competition and double my time in pushing myself up. At last, right then and there, I found the perfect job for me, being a customer service representative in one of the leading call centers in the world.

Since then, I realized that strife, patience and perseverance are really needed so that we will be successful in everything we do and get what we wish for…I learned that nobody can help us in facing life’s difficulties except ourselves. Though people close to us are always there to guide us, we have to understand that there are limits. That there support would just be futile without our inner drive to move on, step up and become successful. I also realized that children must have to do something in exchange of the sacrifices made by their parents. Also, being on the positive side and staying on focus would really help.

Now, I am using that experience as a lesson and as a guide in moving up! Though I have a job at present, I still have many dreams in life that I should have to get not only for myself but also for my family. Someday, I can prove to them that I’m on a greener pasture and that they will be with me, grazing on the verdant grassland!