Life is so important, why spend it walking around in a daze?
I know all too well how it feel to be at the bottom. I can tell you how it feels to experience complete emptiness. I have been to the place, where I knew I was about to self-destruct and just couldn’t stop. The path that I took, where the road kept me traveling in the wrong direction. This is the destination where I never want to go again. What could all of this possibly mean you ask? “Party Girl”.
The weekend for me only meant one thing for me, time to go buy a new outfit and hit the club. Up until 5 years ago my life revolved around nothing other than dressing-up and getting inebriated. I didn’t have many friend and partying seemed to be the only thing, that would make me happy. But your actions has consequence, the next morning I’d wake up feeling like; a train wreck. I always say, “God if you would just help me get through this, I promise that I will never do it again”, but come Friday night I would be right back out there again.
There was a few times where I drank so much, that the next morning I’d wake up with symptom of alcohol poisoning, my head would be; pounding and aching, I would be in excruciating pain, and of course I would say, “God if you just help me get through this I promise I’ll never do it again”. This destructive behavior went on for almost 20 years, and my actions did have consequences. There were times that I even started drinking during the week and I would be so hung-over the next day, that I couldn’t get-up to go to work. As a result of these actions, and since I worked in a temporary capacity, the employer would call the agency and have me immediately replaced. I was going down-hill rather quickly.
You probably already guessed, I met my husband at one of these social scenes, and he loved me so much, that he started tumbling down that hill right along besides me. So there we were, Jack and Jill a complete and utter mess. My husband was a good man, and even a better friend, but eventually he got tired of this scene and wanted out, but I was like the energizer bunny, I went on and on and on. 
Finally, I knew that I couldn’t continue on this destructive path and I simply got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I went and got the help that I so desperately needed and regained my dignity. My husband and I relocated and now reside in North Carolina. I believe that as a result of my actions, I now suffer from a thyroid condition and other health issues. My son unfortunately is also headed in the same direction, and doesn’t seem to want to stop either. It’s will soon be too late for him, he has been diagnosed with pancreatitis at the age of 35. We have tried family intervention, but he is determined to do as he pleases, he says he will stop but of course he is in denial and believes he is not an alcoholic. All I can do now is pray.
Wonderful article! This is a great eye opener for the dangers of drinking and how it can ruin one’s life. Great share thanks! 
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