I have a small plaster statue of Our Lady of Fatima which stands on the wooden shelf over the coal stove in the living room.  Clairvoyantly I sometimes see this small statue move Her eyes and turn Her head to look at me.  Sometimes She looks at me sadly and at other times She gives me a most radiant smile.  I am not the only person to have seen these expressions and movements, other clairvoyants have seen them as well.  At these times the physical statue does not move – and this is very difficult to describe – but it is the Light within the statue that is the Presence of Our Lady that moves and alters Her appearance. 

And every time the little statue of Our Lady of Fatima on the shelf over the coal stove smiles at me, I soon receive healing, either through the medical doctors or Divinely as the result of prayer.

When I say Our Lady gives me a most radiant smile – one cannot describe the Beauty of this smile.  It is a joy we cannot know here on earth, and a radiance we cannot describe.

This has happened so often that now when I see Her radiant smile, I immediately bow and thank Her for the Healing that is to come.  The fact that Our Lady smiles before a Healing also tells me that She is most happy for me, happy that Her Son has granted me the Healing.  I would like to add here that the relationships we earthlings have with the Higher Beings are quite personal.  We could barely imagine how personal these relationships are, nor the depth of the feelings and the sensitivity of Our Lady and other Divine Beings. Their omniscience and Their purity are far beyond our comprehension.  When I meet Her gaze, I am brought closer to where She is standing inwardly, just by that shared gaze.  This is also difficult to explain.  She stands there in pure spirit, non-physically, in Her radiant soul state, and in some way that is communicated and shared with me.  And in my eagerness to meet Her inwardly, I too must stand closer to that soul state. In any case, the ability seems to be imparted to me, whether I understand the reasons or not.

These inward meetings while standing or kneeling before a statue are so intense and vivid that they seem burned into my mind and can be recalled almost at will.  They are of such intensity and Beauty that it would be difficult for anyone who has experienced this transforming Meeting to then put their main focus back into the world here on earth.  I have also noticed that as I turn my thoughts more towards God, these experiences become more frequent.  As they become more frequent, my thoughts turn more often and more lovingly towards God.

Which is the way of all true Prayer.

A statue of Our Lord in a little church in Ovid, New York, gave me a beautiful smile just before Christmas this past year.  I wondered at this, but a few weeks later a remarkable experience and a tremendous amount of Healing was given to me late one night as I prayed.  Even as I type this now, I am reliving that experience, burning with the heat of the Healing and amazed at the Light filling me.

Perhaps more important than the physical Healing I was given, was the sudden awareness and surety that God is within us.  This awareness came in a way that I cannot explain.  It was a knowledge, and a knowing that was the result of mystical experience.  People might say that our true being is  the soul, or the Higher Self.  But I would now say that the only true Being and Essence in us is the Trinity in the seat of the soul Itself, the Divinity in the soul which Lights it.

My experience of this healing, as I walked around the house later, was one of brilliant Light, a Light that emanated from the Trinity in the seat of the soul.  This Light replaced my entire being and then effortlessly radiated outward, into and across the world.  Perhaps this is the “Divine spark” that Meister Eckhart speaks of.  (Perhaps not, I am not a theologian.)  In any case, it might be a Divine “spark”,  from God’s point of view, but from our perspective it is greater than anything we have ever known. 

And this true Self, or Essence – it has nothing whatsoever to do with us.  It is God within us, not our personal selves.

I had my first view of this inner Light during my meditations.  But it was only during a long and protracted illness that I realized that we humans are supposed to always come from that Light.  As my body grew weaker, to the point where I could barely move or breathe – I came to understand that if I were to move or breathe it had to come from a place and an Essence other than my physical body.  Someone recently said to me “It is almost frightening how much energy you have”, and I almost replied, “Well, it’s not my energy.”.  After much reflection, I have come to think that my illness was so very long because the habit to come from our own personal will and energy is so deeply ingrained in us.   God kept my body weak enough, long enough, so that I would learn a new habit, the habit to let Him work through me. 

We do not need a long, protracted illness to learn this.  It can be the result of deep prayer and surrender, a humility before God.  Or by asking that He work through us to accomplish all that we do, that we become His Arms and Feet and Hands and Voice.

Before this experience following Our Lord’s Smile – I, too, would have said that the soul was that Light that I inwardly saw and acted from.  Now I would say that it is God within us, the Holy Trinity embedded in the soul.