I was born in a big family of 10. I am the second to the last siblings of my beautiful sisters and handsome brothers. We are then so lucky for having responsible and loving parents. Indeed we are so blessed.

We grow-up with fear in our hearts, filled with the commandments of the Lord. Even from my early years, we were filled with the abundance of care, tons of good values and barrel of ethics in order to live in accordance to the norms of morality. With that we became mature and responsible and learn to fight with the adversities of life.

One instance, when I was having a rest inside my room after 6 days of tiring work, I’d come to realize that something is missing in me. I don’t’ know what it is. I have a supporting family, inspiring friends, noble profession and a loving God. Still, the questions of what is lacking in me bothers me every second.

When I evaluated myself, it is only in me that I know the real me. Myself is my greatest enemy.  My mind doesn’t go with my hearts beat. My minds dictate me to do this but my heart disagree so as my heart wants to do this but my mind don’t allow.

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Little by little, I’ve learn to accept the kind of feelings I have. Accepting what is lacking in me – Acceptance of oneself!

Yes, Acceptance is the most repelling word that patches up the missing link I am looking for.  Now I believe I am now complete.