Dear “Supporters” at “Home”:

As “stealing” means to take from another and make them go without, and since all sin can be considered a form of stealing, the name of your game is “Sin”. As I have learned the name of your game over the course of many years of personal experience and deprivation, I would like to take this opportunity to explain to you why this is, in fact, the name of the game.

The self-referencing argument that follows demonstrates the thought process that arises in an adult who was raised according to your principles and who has done the right thing at every opportunity while putting others before himself.

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No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to get what I want here, although I feel that if anyone deserves a chance to get what they want in life, I certainly do. The more I want to leave and seek out what I want, the harder I have to work to leave, and therefor the more I have to stay here to perform that required work. The more I do to try to create a situation that would allow me to leave, the more things change here to make me need to stay (for one reason or another). The more I need to stay, the more urgent it becomes to either resign myself to staying or brainwash myself into believing that I want to stay. Since I can only take so much of the first option (since it’s depressing and puts me in a state of mind that makes any significant change impossible) I am forced by circumstances to make the second choice. In that case, the more I convince myself that I want to stay, the more I do to meet the goal of making my situation acceptable for me. But the more I try to make my situation acceptable, the more resistance I get from the people around me (since they like things how they are for their own reasons). The more resistance I get, the harder I have to work to meet my goal of leaving, and the harder I have to work, the more I want to leave, and therefor the harder I work to make leaving possible. Since this is in direct opposition to the Slave Trap, the harder I work to make leaving possible, the harder the Trap works against me to make leaving impossible. Then the Money-Hungry mechanism kicks in. The harder I work to make it possible to leave, the more the situation changes to allow leaving, but since I am not allowed to leave the Trap, the benefit of my work is transferred to the Trap instead of to me. The more the Trap benefits from my work, the more power it has to fight against me. The harder it fights against me, the more significant the choice becomes between resigning myself to depression or brainwashing myself to go deeper into the Trap.