September 04, 2010

It has been 3 months since my life started to go through rocks and winds and storms again.  So far I can say that I’m not doing well.  I’m not how long I can hold up, but at least I still am holding up.

I had to make a choice between my parents or my husband, I decided to go with my parents.  Now, I have to be a single mom earning and racing my 2 sons.  I know it sounds very unfair, and I know that it really is, but what can I do, rather than continue to leave in misery with my husband, I chose to secure my well being with my parents. 

I’m not gonna lie and say that I don’t regret the decision, but I have to be responsible for it still.  I was torn with in my family and it was a loose loose situation for me.  But I know that my choice was the best for my children and not for me.  My friends say that I made the right decision, but I think, none of them realizes that there is no right or wrong decision for me.  I just had to choose and be responsible for it.  Right now I know I am.

But isn’t it unfair?  I mean, I didn’t create this children on my own but I am alone raising them.  I am being as responsible as I can be and yet I am being treated like I did a big mistake.  My children are not mistakes, my actions are.