Voices ring in my head. Words from everyone, of all times and sizes. Does that make me crazy or just insane? I’ll let you choose. I want things to change, I have made that clear before. But I’m not making the changes. So it starts now. She is gone, it’s up to her to come back. He abused me, I’m here when he wants a son. They are out to get me, I am here when they want to make piece.

My life has always relayed back and forth about helping people. They were my focus. Because I came through struggles and pain. I wanted to help others get through it easier than I did. So they wouldn’t ever have to feel like I did. Like I do now. I never gave time to myself. I never had my own fun, I only made things more fun for others. I never really loved myself, I loved others. I never thought for myself, I was too busy helping others think. I was never experiencing life, I was merely watching it live.

So now that I have decided to change, to let go, to give time to myself… Without completely letting go of those things that mean the most to me… I’m all good. I have had the most peace that I have had in a long time. Take a look at yourself. Do you need to change? If you do, I encourage sooner than later.

Because the sooner you change, the sooner the voices subside.

The become the calm before the storm…

More Calm than a heartbeat that flatlines.