Sitting here staring at the outer wall of a broken mansion, contemplating the complex thoughts needed to define a rational explanation, here at the brink of reality I think, quite gracefully mind you, about my need for self actualization, now I try rationalizing the myriad of circumstances surrounding my facing this protruding mess of textured putty used to create the artsy under appreciated piece of broken abused painted plaster giving me this sense of dismal forgotten but important life memories hidden behind this shattered cracked and battered tower protecting the mind from the truth lost long ago..

A thought brought on by a simply misunderstood moment of an unintended overdose which happened in the time of abscess, simply referring to the abscessed tooth which threw me into delirium for a period of time.