Why is it,
that the ones you trust, the ones you love, the ones you’d so anything for hurt you the most. leave you in you’re time of need?
you think you’ve learned you’re lesson in this whole ‘trust’ issue…but then you decide to open up your heart to somebody thinking you can trust them…but then you learn you can’t? Is it me? Is something wrong with me that i always have to go through shit like this. i thought everything was back to normal but now…or is this just another internal issue I’m having once again? So many questions, just no answer.

don’t tell me you’re gonna be there for me, don’t tell me i can trust you, don’t tell me you love me, don’t tell me you need me. don’t lie to me, don’t love me. just leave me alone & let me be me. i don’t mind being alone. I’d rather be alone then go thought this again & again. don’t tell me anything. don’t tell me anything.

i like to keep things to myself even from my best-est of friends, i don’t know why, but i do. & i will. but no one bothers to ask me anyways. I’m not important or good enough? so come to me when you need help with something, I’ll always be there but I’ll make sure to never go to anyone. ever. ….goodbye to another ‘friend’ i guess this is. or why not to everyone? i hope i can move to another country, I’ll never come back. ever. it’s kinda like dying, but I’ll restart my life there…you know?