Why are some people so difficult and not understanding to what we all take time to think about the reason is because they have been hurt in ways that most people can’t imagine this is not for us to figure out its for us to go on with our lives and use it as a learning lesson. Sometimes bringing the reality to the situation can be more damaging then just letting someone know that your there for them, and in most cases like myself I battle my own issues with the f&ck its, this is not for everyone but some things you can’t change about situations so you either roll with it, or roll out.

This is common knowledge I use to have a lot of friends but in some cases if you are reminded of your mistakes in life why even try to prove anything to anyone no matter how successful you are always going to have those days were you break down and cry or get mad and vent about something that makes you angry this makes you a human being nothing more than that some of us seem to think people are suppose to take a big master change in their life. Wake up an become this super man who never makes mistakes well in the movies these things happen but in reality this is nothing easy to do, life is what you make it. I have had my success and my failures. I am a walking book of knowledge I can tell you some ways to be a scholar but I can’t defeat my own battles they might seem like something easy to you but maybe they are easy for me but I think I push away because I am more disappointed in myself.

If I am looking for my life to just sweep away in wither along as a story of things people should or should not do, everyone makes a mistake in life. Some of us are making mistakes and covering them up with other situations. Trying to escape the reality and this is a form of relief for them, you know if a person wants to escape the reality with, within the world they live in this is there moment of happiness then let them be happy because one day this will all end either ending with a good situation in some cases or sometimes a bad one.

In my life I have been out and running around living in the edge not knowing where I would ever end up and now I see how I get treated like a king for the good but for the wrong I have done, I really wished I could make some of this change or fix these matters but I do not know how to fix them, the first step is facing the reality one of my mistakes is I rarely made any but when I mess up I mess up big time. So try regaining your title of being a construction worker and building homes for 14 years and you become someone who has to take orders from people you use to give advice to its hard starting over. Never easy nothing comes easy in life. They say stick and stay but then some say tough it out but who is really the one to understand what people go through.

Dealing with the disappointments with girlfriends, best friends all sorts of things that happens sometimes we got to learn how to start over but for someone who never had to start over its very hard for someone to deal with making these changes are more of a start over then most people expect. I think everything happens with-in time maybe not the time you expect but there will come a time that a change will happen rather it’s for the best or for the best of everyone. The pressure of starting over thinking that you might make a mistake again is harder then you can imagine. Sometimes I think the best part of starting over is starting life over again!